growing pains.

i've grown a few new bumps and lumps in the past few months,
they're easy to hide but absolutely impossible to ignore.
i'm not fourteen, i'm not talking about puberty.
i think i'd rather go back to that naive state of living.
or maybe not, maybe consequences are worth it?
but being a teenager and having the ability to point fingers would be so easy
except i'm twenty, and i know that i did this.
my pride is a little shaky these days and when i look in the mirror it always seems foggy
so try not to speak too loud around me, i might just lose my balance...
it would help me if you leaned in and told me in your softest manner
your most horribly embarrassing secret
but then again, i doubt any of you have the courage...
i know i usually don't.
i have this urge to apologize to whoever took the time to read this, except
i just stated that my self-confidence is lacking and i know that's not right
so...
maybe we just won't talk about this in person but you can still look me in the eye?
and i'll know that i'm still cool.
thank you.