that sickly feeling.

it's sort of like restless leg syndrome,
(i have that too)
but more like restless body syndrome...
like my body is trying to grow out of itself.
trying to grow out of this town.
just knowing that i could be someplace else
doing other things
makes me sick with guilt...
but the thought of running off
scares me, bad.
i guess this sort of stomach ache
just isn't meant to go away.